Sick

I feel like shit, this time I'm sick. My throat hurts, my nose is draining and I'm sore everywhere, it hurts to move. :(

Sure glad I don't have school until next Tuesday.

I woke up at 1:30pm and missed my 1pm appointment

Mental: 8, physical: 10.5

Eventful

...but not overwhelming! [Zombie "Uggggggggg"]

7:00am Alarm went off
7:35am Got out of the shower shivering
7:45am Dressed and attempted to make coffee, ended up filtering it by hand. Had 2 eggs and 2 toast
7:50am Attempted to print my two essays before leaving and failed
8am Decided to edit them while the printer was busy un-freezing itself
8:45am Emailed my note-taker and told her I was going to be late
8:55am Took the wrong freeway
9am Spent 15 mins getting on another freeway, but the wrong direction
9:15am Paid for parking
9:20am Finally arrived late for my 8:45am class
9:40am Turned in my essay
10-1pm Second class
1:30pm Counseling session on campus
2:30pm Writing Center to work on my essay with someone
3:30pm Discovered a $20 parking ticket because I had paid for the parking space beside me
4pm Got to the condo to pick up Eric's new Camero
6pm Got home after some crazy traffic and finally ate something! Baked potato! Yum!
6:30pm Gathering motivation to continue working on my essay
8pm Looked at a hot tub we're going to buy
9pm Ate dinner
10:30pm Got home [don't remember much]
11:55pm Went to bed

This morning:
Mental: 5 Physical: 7

Tonight:
Mental: 6 Physical: 8

Estimate at bedtime:
Mental 9, Physical 8.5

Essay, better today

Feeling better now physically, but mentally I don't quite have the energy to do any serious writing, even this blog is a push.

I'm still saving energy for this essay, I haven't given up and I'm avoiding additional stress from pushing myself too hard, which compounds my mental fatigue. Taking it frustratingly slow.

Mental: 8, Physical: 3
Factors: Schoolwork
Last thing done: Resting, listening to music and taking it easy...still saving up energy for that essay.

Not So Good - Morning

"cool, a true multitasker or [you] need distractons to focus cause you think on multiple levels." - Mike

Mental: 3, Physical 7
Factors: Cold last night, took nyquil, forgot my paxil, woke up in a short panic, haven't wrote my essay, going to miss class again.
Last thing done to help: Drank coffee and took my missed pills.

there's levels of thinking that I just seem to fall just short of from the material because of these time constraints.

Snow Day saved my behind

me: yes!!! saved by the weather!

school is cancellledeldeldeldle!!!!!

Sent at 9:47 PM on Monday

Gail: snow day!

i see saved by the snow

you are a stinker, a lucky one!

me: lol

yeah, no kidding

Gail: and all your work doesnt have to be perfect

me: sigh

Gail: 5 minute fix

me: but I want it at least to look like a 1-week average paper from a Junior

Sent at 9:48 PM on Monday

me: I mean, if it was just cramming thoughts on paper in an hour-long essay test, that I can do if I don't need to recall any information, like Mr. Mitzack's physic class essay tests

but this is like, limit it to 3 pages, and do research and quote people!

and they give us so much material to work with I just seem to barely get all my thoughts on paper in a way I can understand them

I bet you can edit them with me and make them better

Gail: hmm maybe do your own thoguhts first, like mitsak, then go back and interject your research to justifly and back up your thoughts?

me: yup, that's what I've been doing

but I'm just so full of thoughts

I have to limit them when I start writing

or cut them out later

but just writing them down takes so much of my brain's energy

it's like, write 3 pages, wait a day, add reasearch, wait a day, edit it, wait a day, then final edit it with feedback

but this time it was like 42 pages of reading before the writing phase

Gail: maybe an outline to help limit or channel your houghts? and conserve your energy?

me: and my ideas, I have to write them down as soon as I think them or I forget

that's why I send you so much one-line emails

I do write an outline

and I do focus on the essay questions the prof writes

Survival

and I'm thinking of just taking one college course at a time

just really slowing down and try to avoid school taking over my life completely

...I mean school is supposed to be your life, but it's not supposed to take over my entire thought process for months at a time, not even being able to remember the last time I took a shower.